hmm.. glad that my last entry actually encouraged someone.. cheerz ben!  actually.. I came back to delete/edit it, but I guess I won't do that now.. 
Things have changed in the last 24 hrs, since I posted my last blog.. Blame that emotionally-charged entry on my PMS-induced mood swings..  Anyways.. What I really wanna say today is.. Its truly miraculous how things WILL turn around as soon as you place it into God's faithful n able hands.. I broke down yesterday night at home because I felt tired, I felt messy (my life, not mE  ), I felt helpless.
My exams are in a few days. In all honesty, I admit that I have Not done well this semester. Maybe I've been over-confident, lazy, and just too fun-loving.. I don't blame anyone but myself. Do I regret skipping half my classes this semester and only starting to study this week? Yes.. and no. But I'm paying it for now, cos all 4 of my subjects this semester require a lot of memorization.. and it hasn't been easy. But I thank God - He alwiz provides and He's full of mercy and grace.. Yup mercy and grace come when you definitely Don't deserve it ya know.. I've been blessed with support, study partners (hehe), and .. *ahem* good memory power 
Anyways.. additionally, I have to write my church's Christmas play script by this Friday.. Haven't started, although the story line is there.. Once again, I thank God cos all my church friends are VeRy supportive and understanding.. right guys..!?! Anyways.. its all a team effort..
Besides that, I had a few.. errm... relationship probs.. with friends.. Won't go into details, cos its settled. And it really opened my eyes (and heart?) to a lot of things.. This is true: No one is perfect and you can choose to accept/forgive/forget.. or walk away. And walking away simply means losing friends. In the end, its my loss not theirs. Its not that I'm feeling so desperate for friends, but thats what friendship is all about.. yeah? Accepting each other as we are, not turning away when the going doesn't suit you. I apologize for whatever mistakes I've made - if any of my friends are reading this right now.. Just wanna say sorry for any words & actions & mistakes that I've made in the past.. That includes in the long history since we've known each other...
I kinda feel that my eyes are really being opened up to a lot of things lately.. Hmm.. maybe I'm (finally?) growing up.. Life is NOT a box of chocolates (cos chocolates are nice.. and life is not alwiz nice..).. But.. it is true that you never know what you're gonna get.. and choices are alwiz there.. Kinda feel I'm being forced, or rather, taught, to make harder choices nowadays.. Choices which do not end up the easy way out.. but rather, the hard way.. But the end reward is just simply more rewarding.. K.. what am i saying!?!?! Basically.. Its not easy, but I'm being trained to be stronger, and I appreciate every moment, every person, every memory now... To the one person who is teaching me right now to be STRONG.. *hugz*.. You know who you are.. I thought I wanted the easy way out, but life is not like that. Thanks for everything, for being beside me, for supporting me and loving me and encouraging me and helping me..
Okay.. after all that 'heavy' stuff.. Here's a couple of highlights.. We all went to Damansara Perdana (of all places..??) to celebrate Mayyen's birthday today.. I think i talked a LiL too much.. K this is what happens when you've been at home for one whole week.. ya know?? Anyways it was just fun to hang out with the gang again.. study study study!!
GooD LuCk and GoD bLeSs to all of you having exams.. k.. that should be.. to all of US havin exams.. minghuiy.. get well soon!! | 
